da maju er? haha

awak awak dan awak awak sume, neok la twitter saya, klu rjin follow skli lahh. kcian taw, sy baru buat twitter lepas 3 thun! hahaha congrats to u lisa :D oke la na tdo, sok na g kolej. ade kuiz miss salina taw. wahh nitemare nitemare.haha

click jgn ta click :P hehe

i miss you kak nana, bulan 3 nanti wani balik kl yer, take care!

muahmuahmuah love you mish youuuu :'(

XOXOXOXOX

kehampaan hatiku, ouh ouh ouh gedik lahh! hehe

semalam kan kenduri tahlil uma unty ana, tapi sayangnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa seribu kali sayang, tadapat pergi :( sedihkan? kan?kan? baru na neok baby, kucing tetty tuh! tapi tasempat. haishh! sentap nih. unty ana soh dtg, tp na dtg mcm mana klu sume org bz kan? tape laa, next tym bley neok baby :(

hmmm then dr semalam ngadap lappy nih je dgr lagu, konon layan pasaan lahh kan. then neok shibuhara er? haa yerlaa, yg kat mtv tuh, shibuhara girls, pastuh neok mujhe dosti karoge, haa ko! nanges2. haha.da busan mmg cmni er lisa? haishh kurang kasih sayang, weekends nih dok uma je ta kluar lgsg, mhabiskan masa bersama famili tercinta lg tersayang. cehh cehh cehh! bahaha :D

smlm seronok2 sgt kan neok tb. then td mase bangun cmaner tah bley teringat lak pasal na wat asgmnt. trus terpaksa gak bangun wat asgmnt. weyh sengal. payah nok na cari isi2 peenting komunikasi interpersonal nih. ngek lahh, tuh laa. dlm kls lecturer mngajar memain ag gn bantal busuk tuh.haha :P

ouh hmm na ckp lagi, haishhh even kite da buat baik and mcm na lupakan sume yg da pernah jadi tp ade je kan yg tetap na wat org lain marah? yer laa, kate org klu da tasuke ttap tasuke gak even org tuh wat baik camne skali pun. na wat cmne, aku da cube sdaye upaya ne taw utk mngelakkan dr mane2 pihak rasa ta puas aty ag, but still. they dun get it :(

kadang sampai termimpi2 die bley? :( i try my best u ollss utk lupekan n cube move on, but they never try to do da same things, why baby why?? (penuhpasaan) haha! sokay lisa, at least u had try to avoid from anythg that might harm u kan? the rest, just let it be. doa banyak2 semoga satu hari nanti TUHAN membuka pintu hati mereka2 yg sepatutnya utk lebih menerima saya. ta terima pun tape, at least utk berdamai :)

hey, i just coloured my hair to black, again!!!!!! i do this bcse i sacrifice utk akak2 sem4 yg kejam na sgt rmbut aku jadi hitam taw. ouh hairy hair, im very sory to see u became cacat like this! hareeemssss :'(

u should listen to me or vice versa?

tadi tengahari after abes kelas, terus pegi umah unty ana :) mcm biasa laa sampai2 je mst carik chabu, tp chabu tadok, gh tdo dlm bilik, haishh dasar kucing pemalas! haha. pastuh si gemok tuh ade jugak dlm blik, tgh tido. tataw pun, unty ana lahh kan yg cakap -___-

erghh pegi perling boley? teman unty beli barang2 utk esok, haishh. survey barang utk kenduri tahlil mcm survey barang na wat hantaran kawen je, boleh mcm tuh?  hehe. then pastuh tlg packing barang, bagus kan? dtg baca yassin ape sume then dapat sejadah gn kuih2. baguss lah, untung org yg dtg tuh kan! :)

then kul 5 lebih rushing mek amer balik skola then ajak dy pegi makan eskim. lately selalu kan mkan eskim? sbb saya tgh stress kot. nape stress?? tah la, sy rindu die kot, tp dy tade ckp plak dy wndu sy ;'(

tadi kan dlm kelas gn miera je taw. nanad pegi kem. biasa laa dy, org penting kolej kan? ssh betol na neok dy melekat kat kelas tuh, yg mangsa nyer aku laa, tade geng :'(

td kan die call, hmm patot bukan wat aku hangen, pujok n paham la skit kan.nih ag wat panas. mmg mls na layan terus letak! lantak lahh hang rindu ke ta! :P

hari ini dalam sejarah.

BERITA PALING MENGEJUTKAN HARI NIH!! 1st time dlm sejarah hidup en aku kene junjung Quran & bersumpah. sbb ape? sbb si bngok mane tah yg sanggup na mencurik duit membe2 sndr pdhl 1 kelas kot. nampaknye td even da soh junjung quran sorg pun tanak ngaku. na syak sape? haishh ssh na ckp :o

hm kecewa bila classmate sampai aty na wat cmnih, snggupkan. tapelaa, tgu n lihat je nty sape yg kene. ouh and today rasa cam ta semangat sgt:( sbb kan sbb kan mcm biase dy hilang ag. dy suke hilang2, klu aku ilang tahu meroyan, ehhh aku geram betol la gn kau nih!! tetibe en! haha.

oke jap g sambung kls ag. gila nih, smlm tdo dkat kul3, bngn kul 6 lebiih sbb mlm tuh wat asgnment grouping gn nanad. td dlm kelas ade amali treatment rmbut. rase cam da nazak gila babi wehh dlm kls. penatt! mcm na g amek hair dryer tuh ketok2 kat kepala miera, serap !! haha.

eh eh dy minggu nih kan perut madah sakit je, cmnih nh? tlg sy bley? tersiksa sngt nih taw. nanges2 kdang pagi2 tuh :(

benarkah?

balik awal tadi, lecturer lepaskan awal utk siapkan those assignment yg berlambak gila. antar nanad balik umah dlu sbb dy PMS, ksian lak na bg dy jln. then tapau mkn balik, mkn,on9, blogging. and lepas nih ingt na tdo jap b4 pegi class BI kul 2.30 nty. sempat ke? :(

td pagi dtg lambat lagi (biasalahh lisa, sape xknal.hehe) nasib miss ta soh marhaban lg mcm smlm. hehe. ermm td mlm kan i had a nitemare. i went to his hostel, then i saw a friend of mine. its like 'MYGOD, what were u doin here? my BF pun study cnie jgk.' lepas tuh dy wat muke tepu. then after i naik ataa, i saw my bf with other girl in a bed!!!!! is this fuckin hilarious or sumthing like hmmm.......??

than he ran into me, after few blocks, i stop and try to yelling at someone dat i didnt remmeber whom, tbe2 dgr suara DIA! dia dtg with her other frens and she try to beat me and slap me! cruel gile bley mmpi cmni plus last skali she ask her friend to delete my FB! haha part nih ta bley blahh gila lahh weyh!! :DD

tp because of this nitemare la i lambat pegi kelas oke awne! grr! oke la tuh jela kot na share for today. na sambung to jap, nty ptg g kls tade la mnyok sgt muke. and im waiting for him to text me, but poor me! mane tah dy ilang. dy nih ske ilang2 taw :(

happy 1 year and 10months anniversary baby boo :')

i did the stupiest things yesterday eventhough i always said to you dat i will never ever do that thing. but i already did to you. honestly, i not good enoughh for you now!

sayangg, klu ditakdirkan our relation ta lame, i will accept it. kesakitan yg akan kite terima cume kejap. tp sumpah dgn atas sume yg da terjadi amat  agak bersalah untuk terus bersama dgn awak. u too good for me syg, rily good! and i dun noe how come i can treat u like dis. i hate myself by doing this to u syg :'(

btw, happy anniversary sayang. i really love u syg. atas ape yg pernah kite lalui susah senang bsama it really makes me dun want to lose u.but lisa sekarang bukan lsia dulu yg awak syg sepenuh aty :'(

 i dun noe to whom i would share this, but sokay im gonna keep all this as my secret dat u will never ever know! 

kan da cakap, tp syg ia ta mampu mengubah apa2 pun :(

da cakap kan dalam hal kau nih ta boleh na camur sbb melibatkan nama baik kau n kuarga kau. tp lepas ko antar text jam 4 pagi tuh betapa kecewanya pasaan nih. haishhhh, agak merasai juga khlgn nye. aku rasa kau yg menanggung kau lebih merasai sume kan?

ape ape pun ta kesah la, klu nih je jln yg terbaik. sbg kawan baik kau dr kecik2 dlu aku harapkan agar sumenye bjln lancar. aku selalu doakan kshtn n kesejahteraan utk hdp ko. walau bunyi agak poyo tp tuh la knyataan. tade org dlm dunia nih yg sgup na neok kawan dy tersiksa kan? :(

but i really disappointed for everythings dat had happen. tp syukur alhamdulilah, ape yg terjadi pd sekeliling kita nih la sbntnyer yg menyedarkan kita akan segala perbuatan yg kita lakukan. agak insaf, tp insyaAllah 1 hari nanti sume org akan berubah. :')

sorry my baby, thats all i can say :(

i noe it was my stupiest mistake by telling him abt u. but i never expect that he could tell other about this! but things had just happen, and i swear im really sori for this. mmg dy ta salah, it was my fault to let him noe abt this. i admit it, and it was my fault. im sory again :(

tahu klu ckp sori and mntak maap cmner pun xkn ubah pape, tp still na appologize for evrythg dat happen. ta ley na wat pape la, tsangke bnde ley jadi cmnih teruknye. da fyna tchg. honestly i cant see u like this :'( swear to GOD i fell so guilty towards her, my oh my :'(  yes, i deserve for everything that she did to me :(

wont contact her until everythings fine. die mmg tgh tocher, and im sory for that. she woldnt have to face this alone but im the one kan yg silap. da dy alone to face all this. tp tape laa, mgkin klu skrg cakap2 or ape2 gn dy nty dy ag tocher. so just let her be dulu. bg masa utk dy oke.

aku syg kau taw fyna, jgn mcm nih. aku bg kau oke dulu lahh nty baru aku carik kau. klu ko na carik aku bila2 pun bile. tp klu aku na carik kau bia tgu kau oke dlu lahh. but pliss, dun say u udn wanna be frens with me anymore, aku sentap kau thu??ta bley dgr ko ckp cmtuh :( sedeyh sumpah sedeyh!
tc always my pretty baby :')

hope u can see it, not ignoring!

betapa kecilnya hati ini.

betapa sentapnya diri ini 

betapa kecewa prasaan ini

tapi tape la, sy kuat kan! face it face it & just face it lisa! :)

selalu pergi kelas termenung, berangan mcm ade tade kat situh. kecik aty doe sbnrnyer tp hm ta mngapa la. wat2 happy sudah la kn. jgn tnye la knpe, mmg tade mood je skag. kiri knan dpn blkg mslh. kadang2 sakit aty gk klu da pagi2 org ajak bgado.

kadang2 kecik aty jugk klu kawan kite nih ada mcm tade. hm tp tah la.biala serabut taw kadang byk sgt pk. makin mgu makin ta ok kot, aishh tah la. sedih ne sbnrnyer.tuh madah menyanyah g karoke gn bdk2 nih -__-

eh nyanyi lagu arjuna buaya taw, aww! best jgk, takusangka heh?haha

smlm pas antar syaz g larkin singgah uma unty ana. dorg anta chabu g vaterinar sbb telinga dy skit pe tah.alalaaa cyan cyan taw sbb dy mcm mamai kene bius 2x. dy jln da thuyung hayang kn.haha comel gila kot tp cyan. dy bareng snyap je.

eh da laa, mls na cte bnyak, na tdo. eh eh eh festival layang2 da start. tp tade kawan pun na g saner. i mean kawan..kawan..kawan istimwa lahh :(

when i realize..

i noe u were not perfect, but still i can feel u perfect enough for me. honestly every words that came out from u is like hmm a motivation for me. thank you for everything u did for me. in a very chaous situation u always calm me and protect me no matter wat.

ape jua dlm dunia nih tidak penting selain kpercaan awk thadap sy!i am so touch to hear u said all that. i dun noe if i should cry or smile, but i think i can do both for ya :') thanx again n again n again. kite ta akan sdar bila dri kite lalai hanya org sekeliling yg akn tgur, utk itu awk salu ada! :) awak jugak la pakar motivasi sy.

kekurangan dri dy adalah kelebihan diri sy, dan mcm tuh la sebaliknya :) utk itu menjadikan kami lebih kuat dan serasi bsama walau kadang2 mcm2 hal menimpa dlm hbgn ni. haishhh kadang2 rasa na quit kdg rasa na go on but most of the time i want him for my life!! enough to heard his conversation, it really opened up my eyes!

i couldnt even noe how much he loves me. but thankful, syukur alhamdulilah kerana ALLAH mendekatkan sy pd die yg boleh membawa sy ke jln yg betul sikit. yelaa, jahat2 jugak, tp bile bnde bkaitan hidup, dy bley jd serius. bley jd mcm dr.fadzilah kamsah.hehe. dy lahh salu motivate sy utk lebih tenag la, sabar lahh ape laa!

ti really hope tomorrow mowning after i wake up i can reset my past and try to think positive! cube la, kite kene brubh utk mnjadi yg lebih baik walau kadang2 sy gagal. patot sy tanampak, sbb sy salu pk ngatif. perubahan dy ketara sgt dr zmn skola hnge skag sy tanampak sbb sy negative! bila pk positive bru thu brape bnyak dy da brubh n betapa dy sgup watpe je utk sy! ouhhh im so touch :'(

thank you for everything syg. tataw da bape bnyak peluang yg perlu kita bg dlm hbgn nih tp yg pastinyer ta penah kite mnyesal to fix all this kn? thank God i found you.

bahu awak syg, mmg akan sy rindui selalu! for every mistake that i had did, im apologize!

thank you for everything boo!love youuuuu

abah, wani na benti kolej lahh.boleh ta?

hari ni utk pertama kali nyerr g perjumpaan pelajar kat kolej tuh. pertama kali taw,pertama kali! hehe. tp syg seribu kali syg. lain yg diminta lain yg menjadik, boley? tape laa na wat cmane. akak sem4 mmg suke dengki org kot, tapasal aku jadi mngsa, kejam siaa!

batak mcm ta pernah neok rambu torg tuh jela yg mampu aku katakan yerr dcnie tapi ape pun biala, mls na amek port hujung2 aku trus blah camtuh je, mls na melayan kan dorg! sir bley ilek2 dorg lak na sos -__-
sedey kot awne kat kolej asal tah. ouh yer da blaja pun sal massage tgn and pedicure manicure tuh :)

after abes kelas td g johor jaya, beli brang2 utk blaja rmbut tuh la kn skali gn kuku. tp hm tah erk. mcm ta fokus, 3x bley na accident da. nanad g ieda da bising2. heh, tah nape la kan! lepastuh na g beli kad, tp tajadik. tibe2 mcm geram. balik jjugak, terus hujan lebat kan. mcm paham2 je aty n pasaan nih.haha

haishhh 1 ary off hp after abes kls math td!bile on hp td neok mcj da delivered, mcm teruja jugak tp mcm tah erk, neok hp then letak campak tepi neok laptop balik start type blog nih.hehe :')

bukan na ckp ape, tp da busan ah kat kolej tuh. org mcm busuk aty ramai sgt. da bnyak aku dgr cte sal sorg nih, last2 tahu jugak. tgu je r nty dy na ngaku ke ta en nty. pastuh taching sal akak senior. apebende sehh jahat2 akak senior lepas pun dorg tade ah sampai na petik2 nama org. ishhhhh geramm ni :(

ksian kan neok dri nih mcm ta terjaga dah, eh eh! td dy ckp jap g dy na call laaaa :(

baby please dun go!

1 mlm aku carik kau, kau tahu ta?aku g kolej hati pun ta senang lahh kau mcm nih! aku off hp tp na g kolej aku on balik neok text aku kat kau ta delivered ag aku sentap ah sehh! asal ne, jgn ah cmnie bley ta???? ishh :'(
call abg kau pun die ta angkat, ape nie?? konspirasi er na kenekan aku? jgn lahh kejam sgt,plisss lah :(

kat kolej td bley lahh, seronok jugakk kot sbb kelas miss zetty yg comel tuh kn, gelak2 je jp g masa na g undi nanad kaki aku bley teseret kat bucu tangga kolej kan. peh sakit beb, tp tapasan darah. pastuh da lame baru aku perasan kaki aku da darah2 kn, gila ahh, trauma jap aku neok! aku terus mcj farid marah dye! haha!

hari nih sume org carik pasal gn aku. yelaa, ade bf mcm tade bf. sedeyh lahh mcm nie, haha mngadu nasib kan! ishhh! tape laa, lsia ta kesah. neok, sume org abaikan aku sampai kaki bdarah bgai, smlm sakit ggi la apebende la. haha gedik btol! tp sedey, da kul bape nih?? on la hp tuh *beggin* alalalahaiiii

nampak cam ta terok yer? tp tadi darah nyak bley? :'(

the worse thing ever is to hear that u are lying to me!

terima kasih sebab membiarkan semuanya terbongkar 1 demi 1. gambar tuh je da ckup wat pasaan nih cm ishh tataw la kn na ckp cmaner. nih kan plak bile video kau terpampang pan mata nih, haiiishhhhhh..

terima kasih sbb soh diri nih berubah utk jadi yg lebih baik, lebih bagus jadi diri sendiri sbnrnyer dr na dgr org lain ckp :) saya suka dri sy yang sbnrnyer dan cmtuh jugak la ape yg sy nmpak dlm dri awk.

syukur saya ta berubah untuk awak tp mmg sbb saya sndr yg na berubah but look at ur ownself. ok maybe sbb da lame ta 'BERGEMBIRA' awk pegi saner la kan, tp klu stakat gambar je sy ta kisah kot, bley trime g nih sampai de video bgai, ape siaa????

da laa, da penat da malas da kebal na marah2 nih. sabtu awto baru g keje kawen akak salleh. best la gak. tawa dlm tgsn, last week penat gak la, madah sik na btekak gn org sini sana, tp kite sbg hambaNya harus lahh sentiasa redha dgn ape yg da jd, mgkin ujian kan? :)

tiba2 da mlm ih mcm alim la sgt kan. eheh. ouh da cte blum yg bapak apai da mngl, ksian kan? innalillah :(

kesian, saya yerr paling pendek dc2 :(

I HATE THOSE COINCIDENCE INSTINCT!

semalam pegi umah apai, melawat sbb bapak dy meninggal. hm sedih, nampak apai sedih tp ta tunjuk. tp aku pham la, aku penah rasa gak kan :( pegi saner gn fyna capik and ongak.

eh bosan laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, bosan sbb instinct ne salu betol. so bnde yg tataw bley tawu. salu je jd betol betol. bile bnde tuh da tawu betol , mst sentap :( haishh ko nih kejam sgt la dol! tp pdan muke, aku yg wat dy cmtuh dlu, so skag take it lisa.

saya ta buntu, tapi kecewa. boley?

let they talk about the past u noe that all is pass. dun be hurt cs u noe there is no point to be hurt by someone like that. im gonna stop if u ask to stop. tanak panjangkan cte ag da la. penat -__-

but yg penting truskan dgn ape yg kite wat, fokus. smoga saya lebih bjaya dlm pelajaran dan ape jugak yg sy wat nty, i'Allah la yerr, amin. :)